I figured it out! (Or, more likely, Conor whispered it to me and I'm selfishly taking the credit.)
After yesterday's turn of events, I felt insulted and disappointed. I felt like I had purposely been short changed, and this made me upset and defensive and angry. I quickly went from shock to incredulous rage to hopeless, resigned sadness... All within a matter of hours. And you know what, gut reactions are just fine to have. I finally am beginning to realize that I don't need to feel ashamed of it. And what was brilliant was, I didn't make any rash decisions while I was emotionally reacting. Nope - instead I talked to everybody on my (as my Life Coach would call it) "Support Yeam." I told Abby first, then my mom, then Marianna, then Woody, then my dad, then B, then Patty. They all listened to me selflessly and then either made me feel heard or gave me their more detached perspectives and opinions. And it was perfect.
I remember when I had weekly phone meetings with my Life Coach right after I turned 17 and I would tell him how I really only had two or three people who would really listen to me and HEAR me. Those two or three, though, were really amazing, and I really didn't need anybody more... But I always wished I had a bigger Support Team, anyway. So being able to talk to SEVEN people about something so important to me within hours of it happening... And all of them being so supportive about it... That's something I could have only dreamed of even a year ago. <3
Anyway, after taking roughly 24 hours to freak out about it, I decided it was time to use my secret superpower of pure awesomeness, creativity and unique perspective... And that's when the idea hit me.
See, I was basing all of my negative reaction on the warrant that the head mistress was purposely screwing me over... But as I allowed logic to flow back into my brain, I started allowing myself to think that maybe she really was thinking I would be best there, as she really doesn't know much about me and my talents as a teacher. And the more I though about it, the more I realized how true it was. I mean, she's never been to one of my classes... She honestly has no way to even know what my talents and creative methods and background are! She's only offering me a job based on a note I wrote her in passing and what another teacher who sat in on a handful of my classes said in five or ten minutes!
Maybe... just maybe... if she knew how great I am at what I do with the older kids and what a great respect/relationship I have going with them and how many ideas are bursting out of my head every hour of everyday to make these kids PWN English next year and make this school I've come to love honestly have the BEST, most unique and fun and creative and effective English program in the whole country... Maybe she'd jump at the opportunity to place me in primary instead?!
So what am I going to do about it???
This weekend I am going to make a colorful, pop-up portfolio (in Spanish, of course) of my successes at the school this year, along with ideas I have for next year that I really believe would make these adorable kids not only OUTSTANDING at English by the end of the next school year, but in love with it and learning in general, as well.
Maybe it sounds crazy, but the idea to write her a letter which spurred the job offer in the first place came out of the air in just the same way.
I am going to put every drop of creativity and passion I have into this project and proudly deliver it to her at the start of next week to look at before she goes to the director.
Never will they ever have had a teacher this eager and passionate and creative and tenacious and sanguine!!! Never.
Whatever happens after that happens, but I want to know I really gave it my all. I want them to have all the facts before they decide. I want to look grateful and bursting with enthusiasm and great ideas, rather than look choosy and conceited by just saying no to her initial idea.
Basically, I want to dazzle them do much they can't help but want me with the older kids.
The message behind The Secret is to decide what you want and then to not only put out positive energies to attract it, but to be open to divine ideas of how to get it. So here's to giving it my all! ;)
XOXO
Great plan!
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