I awoke suddenly at 6 am to a full on panic attack. All at once, everything seemed wrong. And by everything, I mean EVERYTHING. Money, relationships, school, the future, my body... Everything. It was like that feeling you get after waking up from a nightmare, only I felt like I was waking up from a peaceful sleep and into a living nightmare. It was extremely surreal, but at the same time deafeningly real.
And that feeling lurked in and around me all day long. I felt a slight bit possessed, to be honest.
But really, one yucky day out of the year is nothing to complain about. I still giggled. I still ate chocolate cake. I still got to see Nacho (who continues to get home and put on two different pairs of socks so that he can be as awesome as me!). I still got roomie bonding time. So even on one of my blah days, I had more than a boatload of things to be truly grateful for and smile about. <3
I'm getting eleven hours of sleep tonight, ate three full meals today and am winding down to Bonobo. Hopefully this shakes this awful feeling of imminent panic. :-/
XOXO
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