Today was probably one of the best days of my life. <3 I've never felt so much love in one day. Ever. And not just loved... But loved for EXACTLY who I am and everything that makes me unique.
I remember at the beginning of the year the shooting happened at the elementary school in America. At the time I said I didn't understand how those teachers could just throw themselves in front of their students knowing the very likely could die trying to save them.
But that was nine months ago. Today? I would do absolutely anything for even just one of them. I love and adore the crap out my kids!! Suddenly all those late night car ride conversations with my mom made sense today. She always told me there was a reason I was learning so many difficult and painful lessons so early in life... And now I see the wisdom in that.
I had the most amazing day watching the festival, and then just hanging out with my kids and talking, giggling and taking pictures with them! <3 It sounds so simple, but the love with which each one spoke to me, knowing that it might be our last day ever seeing each other after such a wonderful year... It was something I had never experienced before.
The sweetest and most heart wrenching part of the day was definitely the last five minutes of the school day when I had to say goodbye to my favorite 3rd graders. :( Lucy, Sophie and Alberto all started to cry a little bit, and I had to hug them really tight and run out of the room before they saw me start to cry, too. <3
I can honestly say I've never felt so loved by so many souls as I felt today. Today was a changing point in my self perception. Never again will I be able to feel utterly worthless or like I'm not doing my tiny part to make the world a better place. These 250 little souls made me realize that I am important and I can be utterly loved and adored just for who I am. <3
A life lesson 24 years in the making, but suddenly today all those moments filled with pain or struggle or confusion made perfect sense. Every bit of my life had been leading me up to today, and I wouldn't have changed a single thing.
So loved. So grateful.
XOXO
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